post-interview
It was 45 minutes. She ended it because she was worried about overwhelming me. I managed to not giggle. It’s hard to overwhelm me. “You want to ask me questions about myself? I can talk all day.” I’m...
View ArticleMorning routine
Here is my list of “it would be nice” if I did them in the morning. Run Write on blog Medicate Write on books that are in my head screaming to get out. Water the plants (not *Every* day but most days...
View ArticleTransition stuff.
H’okay. I’m going to need to stop posting for a bit because I need to force myself to get some work done. I’m making checklists. I only have so many hours a day on the computer and I’m going to do shit...
View ArticleSo much happens
When I’m not posting. I still haven’t successfully found additional baby-sitting. I’m trying. I either helped out our nice handyman or I got screwed by a con artist. I’ll find out next week. The wait...
View ArticleLogistic considerations.
There is a home school camping trip coming up. I have now tracked down every other family going. One family will definitely be there Friday night. Another family may or may not, but she isn’t sure they...
View ArticleThis week is crazy.
Monday was one of my slowest days. 9:30 doctor appointment. Babysitting from 8-12. Went to grocery store and bank on the way home from doctor. Came home and did chores and chores and chores. Tuesday...
View ArticleHealth inventory
I am feeling excessively whiny. I am hoping that if I record the full whine I can stop repeating bits of it to Noah and anyone else who will listen. It is hard to not talk about it even though I know...
View ArticleFind gratitude.
My life is not short on excitement. It is now pretty clear that this elimination diet journey is going to take many months. Deep sigh. At least I have the ability to do it. Be happy about that. Takes...
View ArticleToday is a loss.
My doctors appointment didn’t happen and otherwise I’ve mostly been reading. When I stop reading I get cranky and pissy and my tone of voice sucks and I sound like a bitch. I feel guilty that when I...
View ArticleTone is absent
For the record, I thought “Ha, ha, ha, no” was hilarious. Pam said it was really sad. Oh. Whoops. This is why I have no future as a funny writer. I think it is pretty funny how out of commission I am...
View ArticleSo much to do
I woke up this morning mentally composing a letter to a publishing company (I’ve spent weeks reading books from their catalogue–I think I would fit in very well with what they sell) and mentally...
View ArticleWhoa.
FYI: We will not be hosting Easter this year. Easter falls on the same weekend as the My Little Pony conference and our bathroom will be ripped apart for a remodel. Mortgage is below $180,000 now....
View ArticleThings to do
With luck I will talk to the city today about remodeling stuff. We need to drop a paper off at the bank. I have therapy. Today is park day. We should go to Urban Ore after the park. Maybe before the...
View ArticleI have poor planning skills.
Today is insane. I leave the house at 8am to drive to Oakland. If I leave later than that for my 9:30 appointment I am usually late. Then from 9:30-10:30 I have therapy. Kids will be with friend....
View ArticleAvoidance
This is feeling pathetic and lame. I’m feeling intensely suicidal. Because I don’t want to deal with resolving how to handle stuff with the home school group. That’s not cool. (I’m not threatening...
View ArticleWeirdly accomplished
You know what? I’m feeling proud of myself right now. I had a bad weekend emotionally. All I did was sit quietly and read and cry. That’s pretty fucking awesome. I had a lot of desire/impulse to hurt...
View ArticlePeripheral
I asked my current longest running friend how she experiences my emotional ups and downs. She said “Peripherally because mostly I’m focused on me.” It was… humbling in exactly the right way. It was a...
View ArticleCrud.
Today is group picture day at the park. I didn’t sleep well. I have therapy this morning. It’s my last therapy session for a while. I’m skipping June and we will do July-November with periodic phone...
View ArticleThe fun never ends
Shanna is going in for a tooth extraction today. I’m grateful we found someone who could do it before we leave. She’s had intermittent discomfort and her dentist is worry about it exploding into a big...
View ArticleThat was lovely
Yesterday we had a going away party. It went pretty well. I had a lot of fun. I felt like I got to have interesting conversations. It turns out that I am going to stay with some of my friends in New...
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